slippppin

Oh no, I'm slipping back to my old self when I promised I wouldn't. But you know what? This time, I saw it coming, and I'm gonna stop it. :)

You're cute!

merry christmas

It is so good to be home! First of all, Merry Christmas. YAYYYY! Ahahaha, I really do feel blessed, and let's not forget the true meaning of Christmas- the birth of Jesus Christ our Savior. He died for our sins, so we should be abhle to live for him. :)

Bless you all!

VISION10

OH MY GOOODNESSS, Vision Conference '10 was so freaking awesome! The theme was, The Answer, and wow. At first I honestly didn't want to go, and I was putting all sorts of things before God. Especially money, I kept thinking i was wasting my precious money by going to this conference, but wow. I really don't regret it now. It was so...I seriously can't explain it in words. But let's just say, he's with me now, and I'll NEVER forget what I felt there. I could actually... feeel him there, and I swear this was my first time feeling his presence. Through all the praise, performances, testimonies, sermons, activities, and food, I feel thorougly replenished in the spiritual field, and I just feel so much of God with me right now. I suggest if you really want to meet God from the bottom of your heart, and you're willing to TRY, go to Vision Conference '11. It's gonna be something you'll NEVER regret.



The answer to everything is... Jesus.


And... I'm being 100% serious right now. If you have any questions at all, I'd like to be asked. :)

winter break

So much to update about! Well firstly and most importantly, it's finally winter break!! And now the updates: so I was supposed to go to church by 7am today so I could take that little test for 새래 받는거. And I even set my alarm and everything, but OMFG. My dumbass forgot to turn the alarm ON. So when I woke up it was freaking like 8 something and augh. And plus my phone's dc'ed so I couldn't even call or get in contact with my 목사님 and idk how I'm gonna explain my irresposibility to them o..o Scary thought. Gah idk why this is getting to me, I guess it's cus I've been avoiding it for like the past 3 years <_<; I'm so stupid -_-;

Vision in a few days, I'm so excitedddd. PACKINGGGG!! Seriously, who doesn't love packing... that's like the best part of a trip :D

And lastly...of course what would a blog be without guys? -_-; So... basically, I'm really confused. /: Sometimes I'm in that flirting mood yknow? (LOL, on a side note. It's interesting to know there's someone exactly like me.) But ANYWAYS.. when the guy starts talking about getting closer, I just.. FREAK. I mean I guess I'm just content with knowing that they like me, and I know that's reallllly messed up. But idk, that's just how I am for now. When the guy tells me all these things he'll do for me, and all the things he wants to do with me, oh my god. I swear, I start having a panic attack. DJKFHSKAFJAS.. hopefully someone will come along for me too. :) But seriously, I hate it when guys are so transparent ._. Like.. you know exactly what they're talking about?? Idk.. but yeah. BORINGGGG. I guess that's it, although it's only 3:05pm. OH OH OH. Omg I lost my phone again aughhh D: I left it on the bus cus I guess it fell outta my pocket.. and I was texting the person with my phone and wow -o- He was being such a motherfucking ASSHOLE. He was like, gimme 70 bucks. And all that shit, tryna negotiate. So then I told him okay I'll pay you, even though I wasn't gonna. But then he just stoppped texting me.. and I had to d/c it T_T FML. I swear I use half of all my money and my stupid phone.

1, 2, 1 2 3 4

There's only 1 thing, 2 do,
those 3 words, 4 you- I Love You.

This song is so damn cute!! Anyways. I wish I woke up the next day and my skin magically cleared up. -_-;

Boys are so confusing.

Home alone, yayyy :) I love being home alone :)

Fuck I need to correct my physics test but I'm way too lazy -_-

I wish I woke up the next day and my hair was magically longer&healthy

I wish it was summer already, so I could do my internship

I need money. Like. No joke.

I love being around you

Where'd you go, I miss you so, seems like it's been forever, since you been gone

Christmas is coming up

Hmmm my uncle gave me $60 today, yay

Unfortunately I have to pay $100 for Vision Conference so I have -$40

Where's all the cute guys kickin it at

Okayyy I'm finished now bye :)

Farmville

Facebook

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BLASTOFF! BYE :)

a twisted world!

God, when will people realize what a twisted world we live in. *Sigh. I've realized (again) over the past few weeks, keeping a secret is.. REALLY HARD. If you'd known me a few years back, you'd know I had a cheap mouth. I'd tell anything to anyone, even if it wasn't related to them. But seriously, I've been trying to stop that. I really do want people to trust me. I've been doing good so far, although I do feel like I'm about to burst. I just hate it when people go, "Tell meee. Come on. I won't tell anyone." And then they guilt trip you if you don't tell.. it's like wtf? I'm trying my best here to keep this person's trust and you're telling me to just break that because "you don't care." LOL, that's not my problemmmm. But I'm happy that more and more people are learning to trust me, even if I fucked them over before. Because I swear and promise, I'm a new person now! I'll just say, it's hard being on the other side of the fence, heehee.

And another thing! It's so weird how me and this person have "switched sides." She used to be everything I'm not, and now it's the other way around. And I'm really liking it, because it's helping me meet new people and become closer with older ones. Although I'm not sure if it's a good way of going about things. I have all these people telling me to stop, but.. I don't know how to explain it, but all I can say is I'M IN CONTROL. And I know that everyoneeeeeeee says that, but really they're not, they're hooked. And probably you won't believe me because idk why the hell not, but I really am. I know what I'm doing to myself, and I know the consequences. I know, you've been there and done that. But you guys and girls have NOT been in my shoes. I think it's wrong to lecture someone about this and that when you don't know shit about what that person's going through. Okay, so I put on a happy facade. Oh Happy Marian, what kind of problems can SHE have? Lalalala rainbows and fucking unicorns! Does that mean I'm okay, just because you presume me to be? NO! Just because I don't show my true emotions doesn't mean you can judge me the way you do. If you were me, you would know what I meant. But you don't, so kindly back off unless you're willing to empathize and actually talk to me. :)

People these days, they don't know how to do anything without anything.

bad girl

HMMMMM. I need someone to teach me not to care about others' opinions. Of course there are times when you should care, you can't be so impassive. But sometimes you just need that 'fuck it' attitude, and go with your heart. But I can't seem to do that, I can't seem to let go of myself. I'm always worrying about what others might think of me; what will change if I do this, what will change if I do that. How will my bestfriends see me, will they see me differently? As a bad girl? An easy girl? What kind of new shit would people bring up about me behind my back? These are always the questions that hold me back from doing what I really want, from getting what I really want. Of course half of it is I'm not ready. It's like I know what to do and how they feel, but I can't put that into action. I'm bored easily. I get tired of things easily. And it's definitely not a good thing. I don't know if these traits will stay with me until I grow up, but I hope not. I hope I can learn to see the good in people, and to stop caring about what others think! It's my business after all. Oh God, please replace my immature, spur-of-the-moment, confused self with a more refined, mature, thinking kind of person.

F F B B B A

23/11, 13/01, 12, 10, 8, 10/04

Lalalala, hey 거기거기 Mister~
Anywayssss. 1 day + 1 week, and winter break is FINALLY HERE! I'm so excited. Also, I think I should go to school on the Friday before winter break. But omfg, everyone's ditchingggg. Or atleast all the people I have out with D: God help me to make the right decision -_-;

On the other handddd, hmm. x] Don't you hate it when you start liking someone after it's too late? GOD SO DAP DAP HAE.

woah woah woah

Calm down there. I do NOT feel that way about you! So back uppp, give me a little space, give yourself a little space, then back off. :)

I'd rather have bad times with you,
than good times with someone else.

I'd rather be beside you in a storm,
than safe and warm by myself.

I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart.

Remember I'd always love you baby,
you are the one that hold my heart.


Tell me that's not sweet. 3;


Cus when the roof caved in and the truth came out...
I just didn't know what to do...

regret.. thinking.. time.

It's amazing how many times a heart can change its' mind in the course of a few hours. You can love them to no end, and the next minute, hate them. Then you want to be friends again. Then you love them again. Then you're right on that edge of going to the next level with them. Then they do something that makes you change your mind yet again. Then you start telling your friends how cool this person is, how you think this person is the one (again). Then when they ask you how it's going, you have to tell them the unfortunate news that you're, once again, turned off by them. Then, in a spur-of-the-moment thing, you confess. Maybe that's not even how you really feel about them, but that's how you feel at that exact moment. And you think, you don't wanna regret never telling them about your feelings, so you just get those feelings out there: I know this is kind of sudden, but... I think I like you. And if you don't feel the same way, it's totally cool, because I understand if you wanna be just friends with me. I just felt like I had to tell you, I like you. Except it's really not okay if they wanna be just friends, you just try to play it off. And if they do accept your confession, you immediately start regretting it. Shit! Why did I do that?! Now I have to take responsibility, shit shit shit. And that's basically how it goes on. Now you're the one that wants to stay friends, and so you lie lie lie. And they want you; they begin to be more open about their feelings, and all the while, you're feeling very uncomfortable. How the hell do you handle this kind of situation? If you tell them your true feelings once again, you'll obviously regret telling them, you'll obviously want them and miss them later on.

So my question is, why do we do these stupid things? Whichever road you take, why is there always regret? Of course we hear about those happy love stories, where A confesses to B, B accepts, and they're a happy couple. But for me, it's just never worked out that way. All the way up to The Confession and after, I think, regret, think, regret, regret, regret. Well I don't know, that's just how I am, I guess. Maybe this is my subconscious' way of telling me that, No Marian. You're not ready for a relationship, no matter how much you want one. You need to mature a little more, learn how to commit. Learn that love is sacrifice, and if you're not willing, then don't do it at all. All you'll end up doing is breaking that other person's heart. And that's when even the prospect of friendship vanishes. So until you know, 200%, that this person is the one you want, and you KNOW.. that without calling them yours you'll be a sad, sad person, don't do anything stupid. Don't envy others' relationships, when you know you can have one. Learn to take responsibility, learn some empathy. You don't know anything till you've walked a mile in the other person's shoes. Don't be greedy, and lastly, DON'T, but a spur-of-the-moment girl.

If it's meant to be...

FAIL!!

There's so many good things and bad things happening at the same time, I don't know how to explain my life these days! I guess they cancel out, but they're each their own thing, and it's amazinggg. The good part atleast; I'm getting so close with a lot of people, and I love it! I think when I grow up, "they" will be there for me (hopefully, LOL). Idkk, I guess I like meeting new people, and getting to know em :) The bad; I'm drifting away from the person that I used to talk to so often, and I misssss it. But since it's what he wants, and it's the best period of his life, I guess I'll just let him enjoy it, and wait for his companionship to come back. :) And I also feel like I'm doing the same thing over and over, with the same person. I DON'T WANNA USE YOU ANYMORE. So I'll just accept your conversations and words to me, and take them in as friends. And of course, reply as a friend, and nothing more. :) I guess I just want you to know that I'm not going through that again, since I know what kind of person you are. :]

IU's new album is SO GOOD. <3
이승환's too, omg I'm in love with BOTH. D:

flattery

Everyone loves flattery right? :)
Anyways, hmmm. Today was such a boring and normal day. I realize when I'm in the process of waking up, I hate it. I feel like I don't care about school, and I could just stay in my bed. But once I do get my ass up and ready and off to school, I'm suddenly surrounded by people that are so serious about their future. And working hard towards their goals by taking many AP's, and studying, and doing extracurricular activities. And I'm just in the middle of all that mess, doing my half assed classes, and faling my AP Calculus class. Which makes me not wanna go to school even MORE. I don't know if that made any sense, but if you're like me, you should understand.

ANYWAYS. I wish I was a better writer :'(

P.S. Dang, I forgot to update on the first day of December. (Yesterday.)

fb whore

Yup, I've officially joined the FACEBOOK WHORE CLUB. D: But the thing is, I don't wanna be in it, LOL. So I'm gonna cut back on my.. Facebook.. Whore-ness /: No more Farmville!? D:

Anywayssss. I didn't really do anything special this Thanksgiving Weekend, I feel like I kinda wasted it.. but my mom loved the fact that I was home all day -_-;; And also, I've been eating like, 24/7. So I think when I go back to school, I'm gonna be so used to eating all the time that I'm gonna be hungry in class D: Where no food is allowed D: FML D: I really don't think I'm ready to go back to school x] I don't understand people who sleep at 2AM everyday and they can wake up at 6 and get to school on time.. I NEED TO DISCIPLINE MYSELF! ;( Someone help me, ahaha. WELLL, my brain is empty (like always), so till next time. :D

I don't understand boyfriends who flirt with other girls.

2face!

I just realized how fake people can be, and it's scary o_o
I hate people who look down on you, and take you for granted.
I'm not your bitch -_-;;
I don't care if you can't control your feelings, it's not right to treat people like shit when you feel like shit, and be all happy cutesy when you're happy. Imagine how your "friends" feel, when they're simply asking what's wrong. Is it their fault that you put some fucking bullshit on your Facebook, publicly, for everyone to see? Of course they care about you, and of course they'll ask what's wrong. Why put it there if you don't want anyone to know, or you don't want to talk about it with anyone? I think that's so stupid, don't put it there at all. God, people like you need to learn about something called empathy. -_-;;


UGHHH, IDK WHY TODAY IS SUCH A BAD FUCKING DAY
1. Woke up with a huge headache
2. Watching drama all day waiting for SOMEONE to call doesn't make me feel any better
3. Call doesn't come, text does saying plans are cancelled (WTF?)
4. Hungry as fuck, too lazy to do anything, missed breakfast
5. Feel like shit, headache's getting worse so time to hit the showers
6. Feeling clean, and a little calm
7. Plans keep changing; I just decide not to go out
8. Minor shit with stupid people
9. Talking to someone online. Calls me boring. Calls me. Asks me what I'm doing, then hangs up on my motherfucking face. Thinking it was a mistake, I i/m her and ask her what happened. Tells me she didn't wanna talk to me anymore, then LOL's.

I don't know if these are just minor shits, but they're REALLY getting to me today. Especially that last one, WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?

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LOL, you are just too funny.
Some people are professional bullshitters. :)

wtf?

LOL, I knew you couldn't keep your promises, just like all the other billion times. Maybe that's why I refused to promise you. But nopee, you insisted. Pinky promised, in fact. I didn't get my hopes as high as I did in the past, but I still did look forward to you quitting for your bestfriend. OR ATLEAST, I was looking forward to the amount of effort you would put in to give yourself a healthier body. But wow it's so funny how you ASKED for it, didn't even wait for anyone to offer it to you. And right in front of my face, LOL. And, I thought you'd change for yourself, I told you not to do it for me. But you said quitting something that your bestfriend hates is a helluva better reason than quitting for yourself. So I said mmk. Idk, I don't really care (honestly), but I guess I'm just kind of disappointed. Maybe I need to start learning my lessons after the tenth time. Or maybe, just don't get my hopes up at all, it seems to work for some people.

The higher you go, the harder you fall.

i need a brain

DANG I HAVE TO STOP, IT'S SO DANGEROUS! I'M RUINING MY OWN LIFE :O WHERE IS MY BRAIN AT TIMES LIKE THESE?

Wtf am I gonna do when my mom sees my absences on my report card. Great job, Marian, on thinking ahead and not for the moment. -_-;;

itch itch

I hate itches. Anyways!! Today's Tuesday, tomorrow's Wednesday, and then it's Thanksgiving Break! Who's going to school tomorrow o_o... he he he. :3 I love those riddles, and Dahee's been telling me so many!! I love her. Hehehe, I will share them with you or.. only Chloe?? T_T


A man goes to a party, and everyone is served refreshments. He drinks half of his cup, and dashes out to an important meeting. The next day, he finds out everyone at the party (who drank) died. How is he alive?

A grandpa is married to a woman he does not love. Since his birthday's coming up, he decides to kill her and run away. He get all of his money and belongings, and goes home. He kills her, stands for a moment, and kills himself. Why?

One day, a man sees an article about a woman that died whilst skydiving. The man knows her husband killed her. How does he know?

B is a waiter. A walks into the restaurant, and B seems a little nervous. B goes to take A's order, and A orders Dolphin Soup. B appears even more nervous. B serves it to him, he's nervous to the point of crazy. A takes one sip, pulls out a gun, and shoots B. Why?

-Psycho Test- There is a wounded soldier. Picture him from the waist up, which 2 places is he wounded? Imagine it. [Answer: if you chose the heart, eye, or brain, you are.. PSYCHO.]

and if you

Get wid me you can have it your way
HAAAAY~

mystery google

AHAHAHA, random texting, how fun! Anyways. These days I've been playing around.. A LOT. And I need to stop! I even broke 2 promises, in the same day. How nice huh? -_-;; I remember middle school... "Wtf? Why do they do that?" Now it's like, "Wtf? Who are you to say that to me?" Sigh. I really need to wake up! I need a slap of reality! Ahaha.. >o<;; I wish I just had someone next to me that literally.. slapped me whenever I did something stupid. Or something more extreme? Because I don't think a slap would help, although I would be hurt. Okay wtf am I saaaaaayin?

LALALALALALA

I love Saturdays. :)
Meeting new people, mmmm.

playlist of the day

First time doing 2 posts in 1 day.


죽일 놈 - Dynamic Duo
사랑비 - 김태우
You and I - 박봄
사랑한 후에 - 박효신
잊지 말아요 - 백지영
링딩동 - 샤이니
부른다 - 서인국
Chocolate Love - 소녀시대
주르륵 - 위성
거짓말 - 이석훈
내이름 부르지마 - 이수영
사랑 참 어렵다 - 이승철
헤어지지 못하는여자, 떠나가지 못라는 남자 - 이쌍 ft. 정인
고해 - 치열
Time to Love - 티아라 ft. 초신성

I'm. In. LOVE.

oh..HELL to the NO

So......yeaaaah. Another boring day in Computer Class.. fortunately this class allows me to update my blogger. :3 Anyways.. so I'm in JROTC, and the students (people not wearing uniform), have to 'Dress for Success' every Thursday. Basically, we need to dress formally. So I did, and this commander or some shit has the same 6th period as me. I changed out of my formal wear right after 3rd period, and this guy starts bragging to me that he reported me..

SIGHHH. Some people need to learn how to let things go! :]

pain D:

Starting last night, my lower abdomen's been hurting. Not near where my appendix is, but more near where my bladder is. When I use my right leg, I can feel the pain. But if I'm sitting, standing, or using my left leg nothing's wrong. I wonder what's wrong with me, do I have a disease T_T I hope not!! If it doesn't go away by the end of this week, blahh idk. I'm so worried though, because suddenly all these symtoms I saw online apply to me. Like when you're pregnant and suddenly you start noticing all these babies around you. O_O But anyways xD I'm in computer class, my teacher's lecturing, and my typing is so loud. I hope this goes away! But in all seriousness, pray for me please. Pray that this is all paranoia... D;

ca$h

Why am I so low on cash?! Oh, how I regret using it so uselessly!! Sometimes, I know I'm wasting money, but I still end up using it. One day, I just look into my wallet, and I see that pitiful one dollar bill, all by itself... and it's so sad. xD What am I gonna do after December?! My internship's gonna be ended, and then... I'm gonna be broke ol' me again. Whoop dee doo. And there's still so much to spend on.. $300 more and I'm finished.

Anyways, yuuuup. These days, my main problem is money xD God help me manage my money well, so that it will grow and GROW :)

multi vites

Ew, my mom bought these gummy vitamins for me. They taste horrible, like liquid 약.. in solid form. D; NASTY.

remember kids,

There's always gonna be someone ______er than you.

it's funny how

8am: You wake me up to help you carry groceries. I'm sorry if this is bitchy, but I refuse. You tell me not to eat anything then, since you bought/brought everything.

Nothing can really make you happy. If I stay quiet, you just keep boiling and boiling. If I try to say something in a nice way, you blow up on me, which then leads to a full blown argument. I don't understand! It's 9am, I'm sleeping, and you tell me to get up and correct your essay. I think even the most well-mannered kid will be a little annoyed. And since I'm far from it, of course I refused. I can't even think straight when I first get up. But nope, you insisted. SO, being the ANGELIC CHILD THAT I AM, I got up and did that shit. And then I go to my room in hopes of a few more hours of sleep, and you start yelling at me that I changed too much of it? What. The. Fuck. I'm sorry if your grammar is so shitty that I had to change a few sentences around~ Anyways, I guess this isn't something to complain about, but I'm like about to blow up right now, so just thought I'd get it out of my system.

(While correcting your essay, you also offer me various foods of which I refused because of Scenario #1.)

(I hate when you say, "나같은 엄마있으면 나와보라고해. 니같은 딸이있으면 나와보라고해." I don't understand this because first of all, you are one strict ass mom, enough said. Secondly, do you even know this world? There are people 100000x worse than me. So don't even say to me, before I really do bring someone that will make you crap your pants.)

Man, whenever I have bad mornings, the whole day is bad. /:

maybe i should stop

I'm turning into what I hated a few years ago.
Maybe I should cut back,
Even though I think it's for fun and shit,
I know it's gonna kill me later!

But, so tempting.

사랑비~

사랑비 - 김태우
헤어지지 못하는여자, 떠나가지 못하는남자 - 이쌍 ft. 정인
Time to Love - 티아라 ft. 초신성

Oh. My. Gawd.
I am in love with these songs! Repeat for like a week now! D':


Anywayssssss. Back to the main point! I realize as time passes, a big part of the way I think is changed (and influenced) by my friends. I used to have to lovey dovey fantasies of getting married on the beach, 2 kids, etc. But now, I'm not even sure if I want to get married. I know this will probably change, and I'll think my past self was stupid for ever thinking about living as a single lady! But as of now.. yeah that's how I feel.

And also, I feel like all these relationships around me are crumbling. And I know the reason why, but I can't bring myself to fix it, or talk it out. SIGH, give me courage!

lol,

I reallly have to stop hurting people with my stupidity and foolishness. I have to change the way I think; that just because I'm okay, everyone else is okay. And.. I have to stop leading people on.

WTF is wrong with meeeeeeeee D:

I'm gonna wait until I mature before I enter a relationship.
No haste, I have all the time in the world.

nerd dayyy

Argh, I missed school yesterday so I got a zero on the powerpoint that I worked 2 slides for. D: Anyways!!! Today was Nerd Day, and I dressed up but everyone thought I was dressed up for Pajama Day.. attempt #1 at Nerd Day, fail. Hehehe. I don't know if I'm happy or bored. o_o


nov0909. :D *heart*

drinkzzzzz

Funnnn day. Actually, I haven't had this much fun in a long ass time! And wow, the ending was perfect. Couldn't have asked for more. Well myabe if Brenda was happy..but fudge, ahah it was fun. (:

Nrb awkwardness, seeing someone which = more awkwardness, picking some FAGS up, going to someone's house, ahem-ing, FAGS leaving our asses, emotions overload max, ahem ahem ahem, multiply, cockroaches, smell, 월뽕, bus, and mini date. :D

P.S. It's so funny cus sometimes I write my blog entires so that no one knows what I'm talking about except me. I do that so I can remember all my stupid and funny moments. But now that I read back on some.. LOL you guessed it. I don't even know what the hell I was talking about xD Just thought I'd share that with you guys. :D

so picky!!

I never knew guys were so picky..
Extremely, in fact.

I went next door to an English class for ESL students to take a test that I missed. I was listening to some Korean boys talking about their ideal type and all, and then I hear this..

A: Yeah, I like cute and short girls
B: Really?? What about initials?
*At this point I'm like.. no way.. initials?*
A: What intials?
B: Their names, of course! I like girls with intials of J.K.
A: Are you serious...

Yeah, that's exactly what I was thinking.. do guys seriously judge girls based on their initials? I was so surprised.. SO PICKY.. and I thought all guys looked for was a cute and nice girl.. >o<;;

Anyways. I'm in Computer class, nothing to do. IT'S FINALLY FRIDAY! Hehe, busy weekend, if everything works out how it's supposed to. I love meeting new people. (:


Magic Carpet Ride - Ja Woo Rim *heart*

strangers

I used to be so scared when I was waiting for the bus, and random people came up to me and started talking. Not scared, more like paranoid. "Omg they're gonna follow me home and rape me." "Omg, there's hardly anyone here, they're gonna kidnap me." "Omg they probably have a car around the corner, and they're trying to get me to get in." Yeah, you get the point. But it was so weird today, I was waiting for the bus and this guy comes up to me, and strikes up a conversation. He was those typical..."scary looking people", so I was surprised when I felt pretty at ease. He started telling me about some other girl 10 minutes earlier that just totally ignored him, ahahaha. But anyways, it was pretty awesome. We talked about all kinds of things, and turns out he's 25 o_o Yeah that's where it got kinda awkward, but ahahaha. Interesting night, I hope all my bus rides are like this! :) "I was hoping 18..aww." LOL :D

damnnn

And now I feel so stupid!!
I could've sworn we connected.
...I think.

knottttts

Ahhh, hehhe :)

It was really fun!! The monsters weren't scary, it was just REALLY SURPRISING. Which I guess is kinda the same thing huh.. LOL. But the mazes..freaky. T^T And selling our "extra ticket" for $15, finding out that we kept the receipt (which looks like a ticket), and buying another one for full price. YIPEE! Haha, it was a funnnnn assss day, and I hope I can go again :D


SHIZ SHIZ SHIZ IMMA STOP THINKING OF RIDICULOUS POSSIBILITIES

LOL

I lasted 2 days.
A weird thing, love is.

turtle balloon

Holy cow, teehee. It was nice. :]
Would I do it again? Most definitely.
I don't know what I'm gonna do when things get complicated... /:
Hopefully, everything works out in the end :)

clouds and flowers

YOU know what I'm talking about. :)

Yesterday was... sensational! I don't know how to describe it, it was so amazinggg. AMAZING, I tell you! :] 3am... *heart* I haven't had this fluttery feeling for a realllly long time. :D


On a side note, being grounded really sucks!! I can't even go out, and I'm in desperate need of of social contact. Mother disconnected my phone, so... I'm literally 쳐박혀있어 in my own home. :( Someone save me, this is so boring!!




I wonder how I'll end up..

discovery

Is this what it feels like? If so, I'm loving it. :)
This is good. I was getting tired of the same ol' routine, and I'm liking this surprise. This feels so different from the usual. Already 2 awkward moments, and I'm sure more to come. I know you're the kind of person who will be able to protect me emotionally. I'm pretty sure you'll be the one to put up with most of my bullshit, because you know how I think, and how I feel. At first, I judged you based solely on appearance, but I can see that I was wrong. I knew you were nice, but I didn't know to what extent. When I told my friends about you, they said you were ... okay. Aka, they didn't want to hurt my feelings with their honesty. That made me even more worried, as to how I would introduce you to them, knowing what they were already thinking. But now I know, you don't have to be perfect. I definitely know I'm not. And you're obviously much more mature than me, since you already knew this. You accepted me for who I am, and I feel like I don't have to worry about showing my "real self" to you. This feels so out of the world. This feels so exotic, different, dangerous. This feels... right. :)

Of course.. where there's good there's bad. I feel like multiple waves are hitting me at the same time. Not in a bad way, but I just don't know what to do! I wish I just had a set of written instructions to find peace and happiness. One really makes me feel giddy every time I see him. I want him to talk to me, or do something stupid so I have an excuse to talk to him. Two makes me feel pretty nice. He's the kind of guy I'd like to date, just to see what it's like. No.. he makes me feel REALLY GOOD. Problem: I never see him...and he's *gasp* taken. Yuuup. And lastly, this guy is like my bestfriend. He's not, but that's the kind of vibe I get from him. He's really nice, and I know he would be able to take care of me. He's a little bit out there, but who cares?

It's so hard to choose. I don't know why they all came into my life at the same time. But only one's meant to be, right? I really hate choosing.. where are the answers now!! Life was so easy just a few weeks ago. And all in a few days, it got so complicated. I don't want to break my connection with any one of them, but I don't want to stay where I am now. I know that eventually, I'm gonna end up hurting someone. I just want to treasure this moment while it lasts, because I know from here, everything's gonna go downhill.. Someone help?


I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared, but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go, and just enjoy the show.

<33

hehe... :D

edit--

wth...i'm reallly sorry i don't know that EXACT word...but you don't have to get pissed at me and start yelling at me.. it's not like i'm lying to you or anything-_-;; fudge. let's see what happens if i do that to you next time -__-;;;

Dear

You,

You know I love you. I didn't like you at first, but after getting to know your ass, I really got to like you. You're officially a part of our special group now. But you have to see that your ass is being stupid as fuck. We've been there for you, and we were so nice and caring to you. We gave you advice, which you did not take. But still, we let you go your own way. We thought you'd wake up from your SICK fantasy. After experiencing it twice, can't you see you're being FUCKING STUPID? What kind of guy, that reallllly "loves" you, pulls that kind of shit on you? Are you serious? We told you TWICE, to leave him before it was too late. But did you listen to us? Nope. And look where you are now... stuck in a shithole. We were so happy, when you told us that you were single. We really were. I really felt like giving you some kind of big present, to congratulate you. But I guess you still didn't wake up. Where do you even get the fucking nerve to ask me if you should date him again? Seriously, I thought you were smarter than that. This is why you get to know someone for more than 2 days, before going out with them. I don't know if it was because you were lonely and desperate, so you thought you loved him. But I think you just fell hard, and now you can't get back up. Dating, imo, is supposed to be something slow and sweet. You should atleast get to know what kind of person they are. Go on a few dates, yknow? 2 days just doesn't cut it. I don't care if you know his birthday, how many siblings he has, and his number. That doesn't say anything about him. A few phone calls here and there? Filled with silence? No. Even though I do love you, I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING YOU. And I promise, if you do get back together with him this time around... no one's gonna be there to pick you up. I can GUARANTEE that.

5

5...sjdsb

hmm?

What is thisss weirdd relationship?

failed.

ONLINE SHOPPING IS SO FRUSTRATING!! After 15 minutes of Google-ing a few terms, and getting my mom to help, I finally filled the "forms" out correctly, and I clicked the 'verify' button, and..... my card fails verification!! I don't even know whyy T_T I finally decided after 3 weeks to buy this stupid shit for $41 and it doesn't work... I guess it's a sign D:

Anyways~~ Hehehehe~~ :D


Do you know what jealousy feels like?
It's enough to make a person go mad...

.

I guess we're just friends after all. :)

The Cabinet of Curiosities

by Douglas Preston & Lincoln Child


SORRY, I had to recommend this book! I have to say, I LOVE mystery books. Anything with killers, and murder solving. :D Hehe, I also like adventure. But anyways, this book is so fun!! I've been reading it since 3rd period, and thank God I finished it. *heart* Anyways, yeap. Highly recommended!! Not a deep book, but fun (:

Aside from that, I think I'm finally sick. I was wondering when the flu would catch me. Couldn't go to Bresee today. /: Also, tomorrow's PSAT's!! Yayy!! Which means, I was gonna go to school but temptation as gotten me again. Grand plans for a bomb day tomorrow with bestfriend. :D If... my cold doesn't go away, it will be a horrible and painful day for me. /: HOPEFULLY....!!!

The Show - Lenka *heart*

please don't go

and I said,
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all that's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a Love Story, baby just say, Yes.

Taylor Swift's songs are so... "real life situation" songs. Haha, I love her songs. :p Anywayssss. Farmville is so fun, I love when the cows moo and the chickens cluck. :3 And I love harvesting, CA$HH~ FARMVILLLLLE *heart*

Anyways, gonna go out soon to my my baby deul :D Nothing special happened today, but just the fact that it's a Friday IS special :) Hehe, well~~ Update later~~

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Update. Hm, it was so weird today.
Me Against The World. :)

blocked

released
Nothing special happened today, so I'll update with something I read in English. :)
from All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten, by Robert Fulghum

All I Really Need to Know about how to live and what to do and how to be I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate-school mountain, but there in the sandpile at Sunday School. These are the things I learned:

> Share everything.
> Play fair.
> Don't hit people.
> Put things back where you found them.
> Clean up your own mess.
> Don't take things that aren't yours.
> Say you're sorry when you hurt somebody.
> Wash your hands before you eat.
> Flush.
> Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you.
> Live a balanced life-learn some and think some and draw and paint and sing and dance and play and work everyday some.
> Take a nap every afternoon.
> When you go out into the world, watch out for traffic, hold hands, and stick together.
> Be aware of wonder. Remember the little seed in the Styrofoam cup: the roots go down and the plant goes up and nobody really knows how or why, but we are all like that.
> Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in the Styrofoam cup-they all die. So do we.
> And then remember the Dick-and-Jane books and the first word you learned-the biggest word of all-LOOK.

...Think what a better world it would be if we all-the whole world-had cookies and milk about three o'clock every afternoon and then lay down with our blankies for a nap. Or if all governments had a basic policy to always put things back where you found them and to clean up their own mess.

And it's still true, no matter how old you are-when you go out into the world, it is best to hold hands and stick together.

PMO

WOW FML I JUST TYPED A PRETTY HUGE POST AND IT DID SOMETHING WEIRD TO IT, AND ONLY 1 SENTENCE FROM THE BEGINNING WAS LEFT. FML.

I wished for you (5billionfuckingtimes) on 11:11.

pms

i know that sometimes pms can be a bitch. i KNOW that sometimes, it makes you overly sensitive to stupid things. but FUCK, you have to know where to draw the FUCKEN line. honestly... a mom is there to take care of their kid. i'm sorry if you see me as an adult, but im ONLY 15. asking for such shit back, is like telling your kid to pay rent. and then when they can't, it's like kicking them out. wtf? no job... no income... how the fuck are they supposed to pay you? and also... calling grandma for every little problem is not cool. and ALSO, if i acknowledge the shit that i did wrong and apologize, shouldn't you do the same? why do you get shit mad when i bring up the stuff you did wrong? and also, no offense to the NICE korean parents, but i don't understand why they overexaggerate things. for the past few months, i've been doing chores around the house and shit, even when you don't ask. so why bring up the past... like 1 year ago? what does that have to do with the now me? and seriously... i want you to stop looking at me as an adult. i'm seriously only 15, a junior in HIGH SCHOOL. i honestly could care less that when you were my age, you did the laundry every 5 seconds, listened to every single word your mom said, cooked for the whole family, cleaned the whole house, got A+ grades, AND took care of your manners around strangers. I'M SORRY that this is the present, and i'm not able to do those things. I'M SORRY you were so nice to me, and the next second you try and force me to be the past you. i'm so FUCKING PISSED. like.. honestly, i do love you, i'll never say i hate you. but sometimes... you just GO INTO YOUR OWN LITTLE WORLD. like i hate how after an argument, you go to another room and keep talking. wtf is that? and also, i REALLY hate how you expect me to know every little meaning behind your words, I'M SORRY I DON'T. and also... whenever you call me, i'm there, whether it's homework help, computer help, or even YOUR family's problems. seriously, i've never missed out on those joyous occasions. but then...you make it sound like this bad daughter never ever listens to you. hello? since when did not making one cup of coffee CUS IM FUCKEN TIRED AND JUST GOT HOME, translate to "i hate you you never do anything for me i'm so spoiled i never listen to you."? i know you think i'm kidding, but i can't wait till i'm 18. i'd rather go out and get a tiring asa job and balance that with school, AND MOVE THE FUCK OUT OF HERE. i'm soooo sorry for giving you so much trouble, but don't worry, i'll be gone soon. and DON'T even try to make it seem like nothing happened.

p.s. i hate when you say "if there's such a nice mom like me, tell them to come out."
p.p.s. i really hate when you say "fine, get F's, i don't care, do w/e you want. be a mcdonalds worker when you grow up." that's funny cus if i actually did do what i want, that would result in you getting pissed the fuck off. and then i would throw your words back at you, and you would act like i wasn't supposed to take them literally.

i hope this doesn't blow over.

internet

Internet is one important word. I wonder how people would live without it; how people would live without knowing every single thing going on about everyone. Where else would they find out homework, play games, or even hook up? I read a blog about a girl that deactivated her facebook account, and she doesn't regret it. Which, of course, got me thinking: What would I do without facebook... which lead to the bigger question >> What would I do without my computer... It's true. These days, people don't call each other. Girls don't wait all day by the phone for their crush to call, they wait for a text, or an online message, right? I know that's what I do. Let's face it, internet makes things MUCH easier.

I'm not saying everyone should cut off all ties with their internet.. I guess it's just something to think about. I mean.. think about college. Studying takes up the whole night, where will you get the time to check your facebook and chat every 10 minutes? Then the next day, when you're taking your Microbiology Test, your head will be filled with information on who Bob hung out with, and those (gasp!) scandalous deeds he did on Saturday night. Or what really happened between Jen and Brad at the party. Are these going to help you answer those essay questions?

I guess what I'm trying to say is, would you be able to take a break from your computer? I go crazy when my internet stops working, even for a day. Those are the days you'll find me at the library, frantically searching for a computer that hasn't been signed up for already. (I know you guys all know what I mean.)


EHHH, I guess everyone has different opinions.
Besides.. this was just a random thought that came to me. :)

i knew itttt

11:11 is so fake
Another fail.
I knew it was gonna be like this, idk why I always get myself into the SAME situation. I should realize it by now. :T I wish there was a "DANGER!" sign on anyone that has the potential to damage my heart. It'd be a big help.

Yes yes, so melodramatic.
But true.
(I think I hate you,
but when you talk to me, a smile appears, weird.)


It's like quicksand;
Once you start sinking, you can't stop...
And while you're under...
Everything about him pressing on you...
Until you crumble.

Secret Valentine

We the Kings!

I think I like someone again... x_x Talking to him makes me so happy! I feel empty if I go a day without contacting him :D I don't know if it's mutual though... :o It would SUCK if I was doing my 짝사랑 shit again. :T

"Maybe if I change...",
those words should never have to be spoken, by anyone.

On a side note, I just sprayed bug spray all over my room. (So many ants!) And now I'm feeling kinda dizzy from inhaling all those toxic fumes. Gonna go shower, and clear my head. :) I HATE ANTS!!! D:

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Last week was a blur of changing classes. Not really, but it sounds cool 8) Obviously, my Korean teacher was successful in kicking me out -m-. Changed to Service, but Ms. Haggerman kept telling me it was a waste of my time, and blah blah blah. So I signed up for JROTC since I failed PE miserably last year >_<. And this year, they were close to closing down, so you don't have to cut your hair or wear the uniform :D Hehehe, easy PE credits >.> Anyways, Brenda did something weird to her ankle, I hope she feels better and comes on Tuesday! Oh, and this whole no school on Monday thing is gong great 8)


LOL, last update but DAMN LMFAO. I was bored (obviously), so I started looking through my old posts... it's so funny! I sound so unlike myself o_o I wish I could erase it ALL D: But I'll keep them for the memories. :)

Life without you is like a broken pencil, pointless.

The Realm of Possibilites

by David Levithan.
This is such an amazing book. The beginning is kinda eh, but what book is fun right off the bat? (Seriously.) THIS BOOK IS SO AMAZING. I'm so happy I chose to read it during SSR. Let me repeat myself, THIS BOOK IS AMAZING.

20 stories, all unqiue and different in their own way. They all come from the same place.. so how can they be so different? Amaaaaaaaaazing.

Hi...... errr hi.

I hate those awkward moments. You spot someone at the waaaay end of the hall, and you instinctively say hi. Then those remaining 20-30 feet are spent walking towards each other.. whether you're looking at each other or not, I wouldn't know. But damn... that is ONE AWKWARD MOMENT.

Also the whole going to the same side, and trying to move out of the way.. unsucessfully is awkward too. :)

whoooo!

Who knew?! Hahaha.
This is such a great feeling! :)
But I know I'm gonna feel guilty later...

I hate double-edged swords! /:




But for now...
:D

she said

Daddy what's wrong? He just get drunk and high
Mommy what we gonna do? She just get drunk and cry


Yeah, no I'm not having parent troubles. :x I just really like this song :) Anyways~ Yeaaah... I don't really have anything to update with today o_o


If I had one wish...

i'm a Junior :)

Nothing to be really excited about. But I still kinda was.. hehe. Well actually I was supposed to update this yesterday! So now it's my second day. But anyways, all my classes are so booooring!!

1st period, English. Omfg, I swear my counselor hates me! I dropped APENG, and he put me in a regular English class. I used to think there was no difference between H English and Regular English, but I was so wrong.. on the schedule it comes out as "Lit Comp" or something, and a girl thought she was in Computer class... sigh. And I'm scared to ask Furlong to change it, cus he's so pissed that everyone's tryna change their schedules :(

2nd period, AP Calculus. Sigh, what did I expect? Haha, it's not bad, I just don't get anything. And the teacher's kind of creepy... but anyways. Yeap, I forgot everything for Trig. There was 30 (?) questions for "homework" and I did about.. 7 of em. UGH. I can tell I'm not gonna be passing with flying colors on that one...

3rd period, Korean 1A for Non-Heritage. Lmfao, easy peasy! But... unfortuantely I took Korean 3 with a (barely passing) C, so Yoon's super pissed at me for signing up for Korean 1A for fun. He's tryna kick me out, eshh!! Stupid teacher -o-

4th period, Physics! First, and maybe only, normal class. Although the teacher's not that normal... and I sit in the back. D: Why are they giving mature, grown up high school students assigned seats? Hahaha. ;) Anyways yeaah.. nothing to hate about this class, except he requires a 1" binder... bleck!

5th period, H U.S. History.. the teacher's pretty bomb. :p Mr. Babatunde-bey~ He's really funny, or so I think! Haha, his explanation of the rules and dress code was pretty hilarious. It was, in fact, so funny that a girl started crying! Hehe<3 But yeah.. it seems like a reallllly easy class. The quizzes... are GROUP quizzes. As in you're in a group of 4, and you can share your answers with everyone o_o And get this.. the regular class gets to use their books and notes... and now I'm confused. Aren't quizzes supposed to test your knowledge? Emphasis on your.. better for me. ;)


And finally, 6th period, Computer class. Man, I thought this would be a bombass class, and fun fun fun. But damnn, everything from the old ass computers, to the cooky teacher, to the over-crowded room just screams BORING. The teacher has a learning disability, and he's dyslexic. And, he tends to yell when we're watching a video that we're supposed to have a quiz on, so you can't even hear anything. He moves people around randomly, gets peoples's names mixed up, and is hella lazy. Yeah, add that all together and you get one sleep-inducing class. Thank the Heavens it's only 1 semester!

Haha, so that's basically it.. I mean. I guess it doesn't matter that History, Physics, and English force me to bring my books everyday. And I'm guessing Calculus is gonna as soon as we get our books. Sigh.. I love my locker. :D <>

gosh

Do you even like me?

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see these tears I cry
Behind These Hazel Eyes...

wow, fml

biggest mistake of my life.
i'm sorrrry.

perfect world

by Brian James, read it!

So today was a pretty unexpectedly fun day, I didn't even know I'd be going out. :) Met with the girls at 6, and we went up to eat! But damn.. it can only go downhill right? My stupid card gets declined.. and I don't even know why. Gonna wait till business hours so I can ask, cus this is some major bullshit. They charge me $35 fee after $35 fee, and FINALLY, all the stupid fees are over. And now my card is 'expired'? Wtf. Pmo.

how weird..

I don't even think about him
And he keeps appearing in my dreams.
=x

granny's

Sleptover my granny's house last night. :) Damn.. it was pretting boring, but at night it was fun! I mean, I wouldn't call it fun, but definitely something outta the ordinary for me. So I stayed up reading (HAHA) till like 1AM (HAHA). And then I was watching TV with my brother, and it was 2AM, and we were both pretty tired so we decided to go to sleep. Well lo and behold, it turns out I forgot my contacts water :( And I wasn't sure if it was safe to leave them in regular water.. so I forced my brother up and we walked to 7-Eleven :o It was fun, since the streets were so empty. :D And yeah, wasted my money on some stupid contacts shit, and finally fell asleep in peace. :p So yeah, that was basicallly my "weekend". :D

BTW, damn... no need to ignore me. :)

he loves me

...He loves me not.

So, what is it? Hurry and tell me,
because the petals are falling.. and time is running out..



On a side note, tell me these are not cute. >o<


On another (and last) side note, this really puts things into perspective.

EHB

Exploring the Human Body.
Hehehe, I'm sure it's a pretty... new show? Old? o_o I didn't know Super Junior was so cute :3 and I have yet to watch the ones with DBSK in it ;D

Anyways, no pretty girls over there, huh? Goodluck w/ school today<3 Mixed feelings.. mixed signals.. I haven't had this feeling in a while. :)

*MARIO KART LOVE SONG<3

sooo BORING

Life is so boring. I actually want school to start -_- Amazing, coming from me. The only thing I'm looking forward to (so far) is Back2School SHOPPING! Not really.. my mom banned me from buying more clothes :o So I can only buy jeans... >o<

AND, my HK Debit Card still didn't come.. sighhh. It's like.. 2 or 3 weeks late! And when I called Bank of America, they said I failed verification or something, wtf? So does the lady think I freakin stole it or something? I hate those people, all they had to do was check the progress. -o-

Wellll.. yeah. The only fun thing these days are late night texting with people. :D <3 OOO, and I cut my hair. :p



Currently on repeat for just about 500 days. (Just kidding... :o)
The Leaders - G Dragon ft. Tedddy & CL
Sighhh.. I'm in love with this song. Which is funny because if you look at my before post.. I'm ranting about it. Haha, oh fickle heart. :)

mario kart love song

The blue shell is coming, so I'll go ahead
If you stay behind it'll hit me instead
But never look back cus I'm down but no dead
I'll catch up to you.

Those lyrics are sooo cute! :3 So many songs that I'm addicted to these days... like 외툴이 - Outsider. That song is soo sexy. OMG, has anyone listened to The Leaders by G-Dragon. LOL. At 0:56 it sounds EXACTLY like Gee chorus. I have to admit though.. CL's voice here is fucken sexy<3 Anyways, here ya go :)


...Tell me 0:56 doesn't sound like Gee.

Anyways.. until laterrr. Btw, you're cute :D

wasting away

Nothing fruitful has happened this summer.
Everyone gets to go on trips, like to Korea. I wanna go, and get my mind off of things here in LA. I wanna go to where no one knows me, and no one will judge me. I wanna go and have fun for the rest of the summer.

On the bright side, it was pretty awkward today. But a good kind of awkward... ;) I have only one thing to say.. I LOVE MY PHONE. <3

And also... I got addicted to Late Night Alumni. Their music is SO amazing, and mind blowing. I listened to it allll day today ~<3 And I could listen to it for the rest of my life, especially Rainy Days. OOO, and another good one is, The Sunrise Comes Too Soon! Rene told me it's borderline depressing.. but who cares? The song makes me happy.. so yeap. :D And also, techno's.. okay. HA, you must be laughing. "Didn't she used to hate it?" Yes.. sadly I did. But damn, it gets me pumped! And.. I wasn't high while listening to it.. -o-. But anyways, my newfound love for.. new music makes me happy. :D Music makes me world go round~

Rainy Days - Late Night Alumni (Actually good to listen to on a gloomy day.. I would know. I was listening to it all morning :D)


Sunrise Comes Too Soon - Late Night Alumni <33333



P.S. Is something wrong? =T

so happy

It's like you control my world;
You can make me the happiest person on Earth,
or you can make me feel like I lost everything.
I like it, though not the latter... :)


Hmmmm.

another

sun soaked season fades away...
You. Have. Stolen, My Heart
You. Have. Stolen, My Heart

Excuse me, can I get a map?
I'm lost in your eyes.


*Damn, I miss you. Just like those summer stories.. and another sun soaked season fades away... ladies and gentlemen. It's always chicks > dicks, right? (Or for you guys, bros > hoes.) Whateverrrrr, summer's almost over. And I actually wanna go back to school. Get back to the routine I'm so used to... waking up at 6, get ready, ride 3 buses to school, hardly learn anything, get home, waste life away on computer, do a little homework, sleep. Repeat. I need some fun in my life, and I know just the person :)

I MISSSS YOUUUU.

enlightenment

The following may sound extremely weird, but please, read till the end. :)

I've always thought that there was a certain group of girls who were stupidly stupid. The kind of girls that take abuse from their "lover", and make excuses for them. "He loves me, I know it." "It was my fault." "I don't want him to leave me." I always thought, stupid idiotic girls. Can't you see he's hurting you? In whatever twisted way you see it, you can't truly say he loves you. You can't truly believe he's sorry. But now, I've come to understand just 0.0000001% of their feelings. Not being beaten physically, but mentally. Even as you continue to hurt me in little ways, I still only see you. Why is this? I've tried to ignore you, but just as I'm about to forget about you, you come back and bring color into my life. (Stick with me, people, I know this is getting cheesy.) I'm not saying I support all girls that get abused and stick through it, I'm just saying I may understand a little bit of what they're feeling. Because no matter how much they get beaten, they probably think, "Oh he's still with me. He hasn't left me. He still loves me. I still love him." But this can never truly be a relationship.. so I guess my lesson for today is... I don't have one. But I guess I can be cool, and say this is an ambiguous ending. So why don't you figure it out yourself. :)

BTW, I know this is pretty randumb, but I'm so addicted to old songs. They're so nice and...not so mainstream. Take a listen :)

1 2 3 4 - Plain White T's
Story of a Girl - Nine Days
Mario Kart Love Song - Sam Hart
Almost - Tamia
No Playaz - Angie Martinez
I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
Geek in the Pink - Jason Mraz
Dictionary - Gabe Bondoc
Gentlement Don't - Gabe Bondoc
Wine Red - The Hush Sound
Collide - Howie Day
The World's Greatest - R. Kelly
The Curse of Curves - Cute Is What We Aim For
100 Years - Five for Fighting
Face Down - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Last Christmas - Jimmy Eat World
Kiss Me - Sixpence None the Richer

Okay.. so the list got a little out of hand. But this is the list that I'll probably never get tired of. The songs I listen to daily. :)