granny's

Sleptover my granny's house last night. :) Damn.. it was pretting boring, but at night it was fun! I mean, I wouldn't call it fun, but definitely something outta the ordinary for me. So I stayed up reading (HAHA) till like 1AM (HAHA). And then I was watching TV with my brother, and it was 2AM, and we were both pretty tired so we decided to go to sleep. Well lo and behold, it turns out I forgot my contacts water :( And I wasn't sure if it was safe to leave them in regular water.. so I forced my brother up and we walked to 7-Eleven :o It was fun, since the streets were so empty. :D And yeah, wasted my money on some stupid contacts shit, and finally fell asleep in peace. :p So yeah, that was basicallly my "weekend". :D

BTW, damn... no need to ignore me. :)

he loves me

...He loves me not.

So, what is it? Hurry and tell me,
because the petals are falling.. and time is running out..



On a side note, tell me these are not cute. >o<


On another (and last) side note, this really puts things into perspective.

EHB

Exploring the Human Body.
Hehehe, I'm sure it's a pretty... new show? Old? o_o I didn't know Super Junior was so cute :3 and I have yet to watch the ones with DBSK in it ;D

Anyways, no pretty girls over there, huh? Goodluck w/ school today<3 Mixed feelings.. mixed signals.. I haven't had this feeling in a while. :)

*MARIO KART LOVE SONG<3

sooo BORING

Life is so boring. I actually want school to start -_- Amazing, coming from me. The only thing I'm looking forward to (so far) is Back2School SHOPPING! Not really.. my mom banned me from buying more clothes :o So I can only buy jeans... >o<

AND, my HK Debit Card still didn't come.. sighhh. It's like.. 2 or 3 weeks late! And when I called Bank of America, they said I failed verification or something, wtf? So does the lady think I freakin stole it or something? I hate those people, all they had to do was check the progress. -o-

Wellll.. yeah. The only fun thing these days are late night texting with people. :D <3 OOO, and I cut my hair. :p



Currently on repeat for just about 500 days. (Just kidding... :o)
The Leaders - G Dragon ft. Tedddy & CL
Sighhh.. I'm in love with this song. Which is funny because if you look at my before post.. I'm ranting about it. Haha, oh fickle heart. :)

mario kart love song

The blue shell is coming, so I'll go ahead
If you stay behind it'll hit me instead
But never look back cus I'm down but no dead
I'll catch up to you.

Those lyrics are sooo cute! :3 So many songs that I'm addicted to these days... like 외툴이 - Outsider. That song is soo sexy. OMG, has anyone listened to The Leaders by G-Dragon. LOL. At 0:56 it sounds EXACTLY like Gee chorus. I have to admit though.. CL's voice here is fucken sexy<3 Anyways, here ya go :)


...Tell me 0:56 doesn't sound like Gee.

Anyways.. until laterrr. Btw, you're cute :D

wasting away

Nothing fruitful has happened this summer.
Everyone gets to go on trips, like to Korea. I wanna go, and get my mind off of things here in LA. I wanna go to where no one knows me, and no one will judge me. I wanna go and have fun for the rest of the summer.

On the bright side, it was pretty awkward today. But a good kind of awkward... ;) I have only one thing to say.. I LOVE MY PHONE. <3

And also... I got addicted to Late Night Alumni. Their music is SO amazing, and mind blowing. I listened to it allll day today ~<3 And I could listen to it for the rest of my life, especially Rainy Days. OOO, and another good one is, The Sunrise Comes Too Soon! Rene told me it's borderline depressing.. but who cares? The song makes me happy.. so yeap. :D And also, techno's.. okay. HA, you must be laughing. "Didn't she used to hate it?" Yes.. sadly I did. But damn, it gets me pumped! And.. I wasn't high while listening to it.. -o-. But anyways, my newfound love for.. new music makes me happy. :D Music makes me world go round~

Rainy Days - Late Night Alumni (Actually good to listen to on a gloomy day.. I would know. I was listening to it all morning :D)


Sunrise Comes Too Soon - Late Night Alumni <33333



P.S. Is something wrong? =T

so happy

It's like you control my world;
You can make me the happiest person on Earth,
or you can make me feel like I lost everything.
I like it, though not the latter... :)


Hmmmm.

another

sun soaked season fades away...
You. Have. Stolen, My Heart
You. Have. Stolen, My Heart

Excuse me, can I get a map?
I'm lost in your eyes.


*Damn, I miss you. Just like those summer stories.. and another sun soaked season fades away... ladies and gentlemen. It's always chicks > dicks, right? (Or for you guys, bros > hoes.) Whateverrrrr, summer's almost over. And I actually wanna go back to school. Get back to the routine I'm so used to... waking up at 6, get ready, ride 3 buses to school, hardly learn anything, get home, waste life away on computer, do a little homework, sleep. Repeat. I need some fun in my life, and I know just the person :)

I MISSSS YOUUUU.

enlightenment

The following may sound extremely weird, but please, read till the end. :)

I've always thought that there was a certain group of girls who were stupidly stupid. The kind of girls that take abuse from their "lover", and make excuses for them. "He loves me, I know it." "It was my fault." "I don't want him to leave me." I always thought, stupid idiotic girls. Can't you see he's hurting you? In whatever twisted way you see it, you can't truly say he loves you. You can't truly believe he's sorry. But now, I've come to understand just 0.0000001% of their feelings. Not being beaten physically, but mentally. Even as you continue to hurt me in little ways, I still only see you. Why is this? I've tried to ignore you, but just as I'm about to forget about you, you come back and bring color into my life. (Stick with me, people, I know this is getting cheesy.) I'm not saying I support all girls that get abused and stick through it, I'm just saying I may understand a little bit of what they're feeling. Because no matter how much they get beaten, they probably think, "Oh he's still with me. He hasn't left me. He still loves me. I still love him." But this can never truly be a relationship.. so I guess my lesson for today is... I don't have one. But I guess I can be cool, and say this is an ambiguous ending. So why don't you figure it out yourself. :)

BTW, I know this is pretty randumb, but I'm so addicted to old songs. They're so nice and...not so mainstream. Take a listen :)

1 2 3 4 - Plain White T's
Story of a Girl - Nine Days
Mario Kart Love Song - Sam Hart
Almost - Tamia
No Playaz - Angie Martinez
I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
Geek in the Pink - Jason Mraz
Dictionary - Gabe Bondoc
Gentlement Don't - Gabe Bondoc
Wine Red - The Hush Sound
Collide - Howie Day
The World's Greatest - R. Kelly
The Curse of Curves - Cute Is What We Aim For
100 Years - Five for Fighting
Face Down - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Last Christmas - Jimmy Eat World
Kiss Me - Sixpence None the Richer

Okay.. so the list got a little out of hand. But this is the list that I'll probably never get tired of. The songs I listen to daily. :)

and i have to agree

Walking is so liberating :) Of course I'll always prefer cars/buses over walking, sometimes.. you jsut need to take the time to walk :o :)

--edit-- I started watching 선덕여왕. There's this scene where.. basically there's a bad guy chasing after a mom and a daughter. So they're running away, and the mom gets caught in quicksand, so the daughter does everything to help, and tries to rope her up and everything. The mom, knowing that it's obviously impossible to escape from the quicksand when it's nearly up to her shoulders, takes a knife out and begins cutting the rope. They show the scene all the way to the mom sinking so you can't see any part of her. While watching this, I thought damnnnn... what would I have done if I was in such a helpless situation? Can you imagine watching your mom sinking in front of you, and you can't even pull her out? You can't even go in, because, well, it's your mother's wish that you stay alive. I kept thinking about it, and honestly, I don't know what the hell I would've done. I never do well under pressure, and I think watching my mom go like that would probably have left me tramautized for the rest of my life. Sigh, this sounds lame, but dramas are so realistic. All that acting, and memorable scenes, get you thinking, "What would I have done in that situation?" Well, there goes my happy time. Now I'm stuck thinking about, "What would I have done?" Sigh, I hate empathy. D:




I didn't mean it...

a little late...

But I've decided to set a few goals for August.

>> Try to take a positive outlook on most things



>> Realize that the whole world doesn't revolve around Marian.



>>Try to stop judging people based on appearances.



>> Try to be happy for friends



>>Learn to let things go



>> TRY, and I said try, not to get jealous so easily :(



>> Stop envying what others have, and enjoy/be thankful for what I have



>> None of that fake smile/laugh bullshit~



>> Learn to turn the other cheek.



>> Stop trying to be someone I'm not, just to impress some guy.



>> Start thinking...deeply. :o



>> Try to live life simply.. life's short. :)



>> As for relationships.. whatever happens, happens. Don't think too much over it, and stress. Stress = bad skin. :) Which leads me to my next point...



>> Clear up my skin! AKA, use products diligently, and eat healthier.


I think this list is a little too demanding.. so I don't wanna make these changes overnight. I mean.. that would be nice, but I know it's going to take some motivation. Also, I want these habits to be so natural, that they become a part of me, so that I don't even notice them anymore. So.. I'll read back on this every once in a while. I think it's good to sometimes stop in life, and prioritize yourself. Hopefully, I can remember these resolutions.

So kids, what did we learn today? To try :)

shitty/frustrating day

I hate when your day is finally going normally, and then something at the end fucks it up.

So, today I was talking to Izzy, and I happened to ask her what she does at home and whatnot. She told me lately, she's been reading, and then I started thinking, "Damn.. it's been a while since I've read a book, and there's so many good ones! Since the library's 4-5 blocks away, I guess I'll go." So the first thing that went wrong was, it was pretty cool in my house so i wore a thin sweater and sweatpants out. FML. I was burning and sweating. In a pissed off state, I finally got to the library, where I proceeded to find out that the Deathly Hallows book wasn't there. :( But oh well, so I got 3 other books, and I was in line for about 10 minutes, when FINALLY a lady tells me I'm in the wrong line. So I had to get behind about 5 other people, and wait for another 15 minutes in shame. THEN I FINALLY get to the desk, and the lady tells me my card is fucken EXPIRED. WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF CARD EXPIRES? Wow... so she was like, "You can sign up for one over there." So I go and wait in line for ANOTHER 10 minutes cus some lady is making cards for like.. 4 of her children. So I finally fucking fucking fucking get my turn, and she tells me I either have to be 18+ years old, or my parent has to be there. I practically begged her that I'm responsible and shit, but she fucken refuses me. And I know this is the lamest shit you'll ever hear.. like ever in your whole life, but it made me cry a little. It was so frustrating, and I did't know what to do. I just wanted to borrow a few books, and all this bullshit happens. And THEN I thought.. Dang. Am I sensitive these days or what? I've been seeing that little things get on my nerves, and I don't laugh as much now. Well.. I guess I can just hope for this to go away. Btw, this is the kind of shit that makes kids hate libraries. :(

It's not the events that happen to us;
it's how we choose to react to those events,
that determines our happiness.

lesson learned

Dang.. yesterday was a helluva day.


I wish you would stop staring at him...
I wish you would stop staring at her.

sweet cigarettes

Today, I was waiting for the bus. I was sitting down on those dirtyass brown benches, and there was a homeless (I'm assuming) sitting next to me. Then these kids, who can't be out of highschool, pass by. As they're passing by, one of those typical ganster looking guys stops, and gives the man his cigarette that he was smoking. Then he takes a new one, and gives him that too, and walks away.

I don't know why, but this made me smile! It was so sweet, even though that boy just helped to contribute to deteriorating the man's body. It really struck me that we need more people like this in the world. People who don't mind giving up their posessions, no matter how big or small, to someone that would really enjoy it. All throughout, the man was smiling, and thanking the boy (to himself). I don't think I'll ever forget today. See, you'll find the most beautiful things in the most unexpected places.

flash

Man... even when it's the weekends, it doesn't feel like it. And for some lucky people, everyday is weekend day! Well I hope you guys get fat. :) Anyways.. I wanna stay up!! It's a freakin Saturday... but nope. I have to sleep early (on a weekend) so that I can get up early and go ride the damn bus to church. Why do I live so far away? I wish I lived in Koreatownnn, so that someone could pick me up. Sigh, one more hour of sleep would be heavenly. :( Well anyways.. I just wanted to write a post on HOW QUICKLY SUMMER'S PASSING BY. Damn, I SWEAR just yesterday it was late June. D: I don't like this :T 2 1/2 months is way to short. MY BRAIN NEEDS MORE REST!

On a sidenote, I'm planning on getting some kickass concealer. A lot of people have commented on how my under-eye bags make me look like a druggie. It's not fair how some blessed people sleep like.. 3 freakin hours a night, and they have NO dark circles. And then, I sleep like a trillion hours a night, and there they are in the morning. D: Any recommendations? :) Teehee. Well this post is making me even more awake, so better get back to bed when I'm in sleepy more. :) Ttfn.

BTW, yay! It's August 1 so.. Happy August 1 :)

You got me lovesick