pms

i know that sometimes pms can be a bitch. i KNOW that sometimes, it makes you overly sensitive to stupid things. but FUCK, you have to know where to draw the FUCKEN line. honestly... a mom is there to take care of their kid. i'm sorry if you see me as an adult, but im ONLY 15. asking for such shit back, is like telling your kid to pay rent. and then when they can't, it's like kicking them out. wtf? no job... no income... how the fuck are they supposed to pay you? and also... calling grandma for every little problem is not cool. and ALSO, if i acknowledge the shit that i did wrong and apologize, shouldn't you do the same? why do you get shit mad when i bring up the stuff you did wrong? and also, no offense to the NICE korean parents, but i don't understand why they overexaggerate things. for the past few months, i've been doing chores around the house and shit, even when you don't ask. so why bring up the past... like 1 year ago? what does that have to do with the now me? and seriously... i want you to stop looking at me as an adult. i'm seriously only 15, a junior in HIGH SCHOOL. i honestly could care less that when you were my age, you did the laundry every 5 seconds, listened to every single word your mom said, cooked for the whole family, cleaned the whole house, got A+ grades, AND took care of your manners around strangers. I'M SORRY that this is the present, and i'm not able to do those things. I'M SORRY you were so nice to me, and the next second you try and force me to be the past you. i'm so FUCKING PISSED. like.. honestly, i do love you, i'll never say i hate you. but sometimes... you just GO INTO YOUR OWN LITTLE WORLD. like i hate how after an argument, you go to another room and keep talking. wtf is that? and also, i REALLY hate how you expect me to know every little meaning behind your words, I'M SORRY I DON'T. and also... whenever you call me, i'm there, whether it's homework help, computer help, or even YOUR family's problems. seriously, i've never missed out on those joyous occasions. but then...you make it sound like this bad daughter never ever listens to you. hello? since when did not making one cup of coffee CUS IM FUCKEN TIRED AND JUST GOT HOME, translate to "i hate you you never do anything for me i'm so spoiled i never listen to you."? i know you think i'm kidding, but i can't wait till i'm 18. i'd rather go out and get a tiring asa job and balance that with school, AND MOVE THE FUCK OUT OF HERE. i'm soooo sorry for giving you so much trouble, but don't worry, i'll be gone soon. and DON'T even try to make it seem like nothing happened.

p.s. i hate when you say "if there's such a nice mom like me, tell them to come out."
p.p.s. i really hate when you say "fine, get F's, i don't care, do w/e you want. be a mcdonalds worker when you grow up." that's funny cus if i actually did do what i want, that would result in you getting pissed the fuck off. and then i would throw your words back at you, and you would act like i wasn't supposed to take them literally.

i hope this doesn't blow over.