babu

I have a Babu notebook, so cute :3


I can never win :(
Sometimes, I wish you weren't there :(

what about me?

Blehhh, today was COLD for a change. It wouldn't have been cold, if it wasn't for the fact that I was wearing the totally wrong things :( Gosh, I have no sense for weather. D: I wish I had a little voice in my head that told me exactly how the weather was going to be everyday :( I can't trust weather.com >:O Hahaha, but anyways. LACC is so small!! I thought it would be a lot bigger, seeing as it is a college o_o Anyways~ Yeap

But damn, when I got back home, idk. I told my mom that I don't wanna go to UCLA, and daaamn. You don't even know! She's been bitching at me for the past...1 hour? She's like omg omg omg you're ruining your life, you're gonna be a whore (not literally), and etc etc. I mean come on... what happened to freedom? What about what I wanna do? I don't wanna be a goddamn doctor. If you want me to do it so much, YOU FUCKEN DO IT. Goodness, it's not fair. FREEDOM I SAY. D: And now she's talking to herself, and I can't hear her due to the clacking of my keyboard. :)

P.S. See how I'm trying to look at everything positively? :)

bye, weekends

I love being busy during the summer :) Bresee Mon-Fri, which by the way, has helped me meet some great people! And then church/friends on the weekends... summer's definitely not the way I pictured it. I thought I would be at home (like last summer), doing computer all day, eating, shitting, sleeping! I even refused a few offers to go out (last summer) because I just didn't feel like it. But seriously, this summer, I'm really meeting some people that have changed how I look at others. You know the whole, don't judge a book by its' cover. But you and I have to admit, we do it occasionally. More so for me. I'd see a person that looks like a typical gangster, and I'd be frightened! But when we shared a few words, the fear went away. And I felt the same way for the people at Bresee. The neighborhood is kind of bleh, and I hardly knew anyone, so I was intimidated. But I saw, they were human too :) That didn't come out how I wanted it to come out... so hopefully you understand what I'm trying to say. But yeah, they turned out to be AWESOME PEOPLE :D Teehee. And I guess I wanna thank them, becuase a lot of the stereotypes I had in my mind were, and will remain, broken :] I'm really glad that I decided to join this program, because if it wasn't for G4L, I think I would still be a semi-bad person. :)

It hurts to watch you watching someone else...
It hurts to look into your eyes, and see someone else...
It hurts to feel your heart, and know it's beating for someone else...
It hurts to see that everything you do, is for someone else...
IT HURTS.

bleh D:

It's so tiring going to Bresee. Anyways, I have another rant :( So much shit happened today! Haha. So we were cleaning up a biiiig pile of leaves & twigs, and I found a cane! So I told Boris (our program supervisor), "Hey Boris! This is for you ;)!" And he fucken like.. takes it UP THE ASS. So then he makes me, Mariana, Izzy, and Laura shovel fucken cow shit alll over the fucken garden! And he's like.. "Even old people can do better than that." And he was seriously just giving us all this bullshit about how we're not respecting old people or some shit.. WTF. Seriously, it's not my fault that he got all butthurt and shit, and he makes us shovel cow shit? UGH.


Knowing that you offered it to them,
just to get a chance to offer it to Her. <3

cutie

Why am I so shallow?
I'm so quick to judge based on appearance.
And even if they have a bombass personality,
if they're not cute or okay looking,
it just kills it for me.
I know that's some like.. messed up shit.
Buuuuut, that's just who I am :T
I'm really hoping one day,
someone will be able to change my outlook. <3



Even though that flower tried its' hardest to blossom..
Always, a wandering foot came and crushed its' hope.. its' determination.

edit__ LOL. I was reading this again, and boy. This makes me laugh everytime. Just thought I'd share a piece of laughter with you guys. :)

To people who LOVE sending chain letters:
Hello, my name is Basmati Kasaar. I am suffering from rare and deadly diseases, poor scores on final exams, extreme virginity, fear of being kidnapped and executed by anal electrocution, and guilt for not forwarding out 50 billion fucking chain letters sent to me by people who actually believe that if you send them on, then that poor fucking 6 year old girl in Arkansas with a breast on her forehead will be able to raise enough money to have it removed before her redneck parents sell her off to the traveling freak show.

Do you honestly believe that Bill Gates is going to give you and everyone you send his email to $1000? How stupid are you? Ooooh, looky here! If I scroll down this page and make a wish, I'll get laid by every Playboy Bunny in the magazine! What a bunch of fucking bullshit.

So basically, this message is a big FUCK YOU to all the people out there who have nothing better to do than to send me stupid chain mail forwards. Maybe the evil chain letter leprechauns will come into my apartment and sodomize me in my sleep for not continuing the chain which was started by Ceaser in 5 A.D. and was brought to this country by midget pilgrims on the Mayflower and if it makes it to the year 2000, it'll be in the Guinness Book of World Records for longest continuous streak of blatant stupidity.

Fuck them!

If you're going to forward something, at least send me something mildly fucking amusing. I've seen all the 'send this to 50 of your closest friends, and this poor, wretched excuse for a human being will somehow receive a Nickel from some omniscient being'. I don't fucking care. Show a little intelligence and think about what you're actually contributing to by sending out forwards. Chances are it's your own unpopularity.


THE FOUR BASIC TYPES OF CHAIN LETTERS:

Chain Letter Type 1:
(scroll down)


Make a wish!!!




Keep Scrolling



No, really, go on and make one!!!





Oh please, they'll never go out with you!!!
Wish something else!!!





Not that, you pervert!!






STOP!!!!


Wasn't that fun? smile.gif
Hope you made a great wish smile.gif


Now, to make you feel guilty, here's what I'll do. First of all, if you don't send this to 5096 people in the next 5 seconds, you will be raped by a mad goat and thrown off a high building into a pile of manure.

It's true! Because, THIS letter isn't like those fake ones, THIS one is TRUE!! Really!!! Here's how it goes:

*Send this to 1 person: One person will be pissed off at you for sending them a stupid chain letter.

*Send this to 2-5 people: 2-5 people will be pissed off at you for sending them a stupid chain letter.

*Send this to 5-10 people: 5-10 people will be pissed off at you for sending them a stupid chain letter, and may form a plot on your life.

*Send this to 10-20 people: 10-20 people will be pissed off at you for sending them a stupid chain letter and will napalm your house. Thanks!!!! Good Luck!!!

Chain Letter Type 2

Hello, and thank you for reading this letter. You see, there is a starving little boy in Baklaliviatatlaglooshen who has no arms, no legs, no parents, and no goats. This little boy's life could be saved, because for every time you pass this on, a dollar will be donated to the Little Starving Legless Armless Goatless Boy from Baklaliviatatlaglooshen Fund.

Oh, and remember, we have absolutely no way of counting the emails sent and this is all a complete load of bullcrap. So go on, reach out. Send this to 5 people in the next 47 seconds.

Oh, and a reminder - if you accidentally send this to 4 or 6 people, you will die instantly.

Thanks again!!


Chain Letter Type 3

Hi there!! This chain letter has been in existence since 1897. This is absolutely incredible because there was no email then and probably not as many sad pricks with nothing better to do.

So this is how it works... Pass this on to 15,067 people in the next 7 minutes or something horrible will happen to you like:

*Bizarre Horror Story 1
Miranda Pinsley was walking home from school on Saturday. She had recently received this letter and ignored it. She then tripped in a crack in the sidewalk, fell into the sewer, was gushed down a drainpipe in a flood of poopie, and went flying out over a waterfall. Not only did she smell nasty, she died. This Could Happen To You!!!

*Bizarre Horror Story 2
Dexter Bip, a 13 year old boy, got a chain letter in his mail and ignored it. Later that day, he was hit by a car and so was his boyfriend (hey, some people swing that way). They both died and went to hell and were cursed to eat adorable kittens every day for eternity.

This Could Happen To You Too!!! Remember, you could end up just like Pinsley and Bip. Just send this letter to all of your loser friends, and everything will be okay.


Chain Letter Type 4

As if you care, here is a poem that I wrote.
Send it to all your friends.

FRIENDS:

A friend is someone who is always at your side.

A friend is someone who likes you even though you stink of shit, and your breath smells like you've been eating catfood.

A friend is someone who likes you even though you're as ugly as a hat full of assholes.

A friend is someone who cleans up for you after you've soiled yourself.

A friend is someone who stays with you all night while you cry about your sad, sad life.

A friend is someone who pretends they like you when they really think you should be raped by mad goats, then thrown to vicious dogs.

A friend is someone who scrubs your toilet, vacuums and then gets the check and leaves and doesn't speak much English...no, sorry that's the cleaning lady.

A friend is NOT someone who sends you chain letters because he wants his wish of being rich to come true.

Now pass this on! If you don't, you'll never have sex ever again!


The point being? If you get some chain letter that's threatening to leave you shagless or luckless for the rest of your life, delete it. If it's funny, send it on. Don't piss people off by making them feel guilty about a leper in Botswana with no teeth, who's been tied to a dead elephant for 27 years, whose only savior is the 5 cents per
letter he'll receive if you forward this mail, otherwise you'll end up like Miranda. Right?

Now Send this to everyone on your email list to prove how Fucking Right i am!

100th post

YAY :)
Or atleast I think so.. on my Blogger homepage it says the post before this one was the 100th, but if you add up th entires (to your right), this one's the 100th... so actually I don't know what to say, LOL. But let's just say this is the 100th post, for time's sake! Well.. nothing special happened today, but I feel like I have to write in here! Oh... I ate an ant o_o Disgusting I know, but it was on accident. OH! And tomorrow, going to the Museum of Tolerance!! So excited, I haven't been there once. You know, they're prohibiting us from saying "daaaaayum." Super strict o_o. Ahaha, well hopefully, I'll get to update later. If something interesting happens. Since I'm a night person. :)

P.S. Damn.. "I love you" huh?

edit__ Damn some guys are motherfucking cocky assholes. I mean, first you tell me to entertain you cus you're bored, and then you tell me to come out and ride the bus to your house cus you're bored, and THEN you fucken tell me you'll pay me to write a fucken 6 page essay? WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE. Fucken uglyass bitch, MY GOD. Why is there so many things that pmo these days. But you hafta admit, this guy's a grade A ASSHOLE. Fuuuck, I'm not your fucken call girl, nor am I your bitch. Dang, I seriously wanna slap him right now. ASSHOLE. Seriously, if you're gonna say that kinda SHIT, you should atleast be fucken cute. But some uglyass saying that? Doesn't even make sense. GO TO HELL. AND, you have the nerve to talk to me as if nothing happened. HAHAHAHA, YOU'RE SO FUCKEN FUNNY, YOU SHOULD BE A COMEDIAN.

:3

I think if it wasn't for Bresee, I would be dying everyday. I'm glad this summer's not a repeat of last summer, aka staying home everyday lazing around doing nothing. :) Haha, I really wish school didn't come though.. I'm not ready at all. :T But hey, it's just the beginning of summer :D Damn, there's so many nice boys out there, but they're all... o_o And I don't mean to sound like I'm degrading them, but they're not my type? I don't know, and I don't care since no one reads this! Buuuut, yeap. I'm loving the girl boxers from AE. They're soooooo comfortable, go buy a pair. You won't regreat it, I swear :D Well right now.. I'm addicted to all these Korean songss.. 결혼해줄래, I Don't Care, Hot Issue, 여성시대, and moreee :D I know some of em are prettty old, but I'm just now getting addicted! Get on the wagon, people :) Well anyways, update later, if something interesting happens. Btw, some guys are just assholes. :)

JAD

Just Another Day.

Damn, why is summer so boring? Am I the one making it boring? Is it because I live so far, and I can't go out at night? Is it because my curfew's at 8? Is it because all the cute guys are weird? Whatever the reason, it is B O R I N G. I'd honestly rather go to Elite, atleast something to pass the days by. These days, all I've been doing is sitting in front of the computer and watching Korean movies. Great job, Marian. Great job on keeping your New Years Resolutions of not being lazy. Also.. I have a confession to make. I am being a bitch to my mom these days. I don't know why, but everything she does just pisses me off. Then of course I have my moment of guiltiness, when I think about her gone from this world. Honestly, I know I can't live without my mom. Or atleast as of right now, I can't. And it's not just because she feeds me, and provides a roof over my head. It's because of the unconditional love she gives me, and everything else. I wish one day, I woke up and it was just in me to be a good little girl. Filial piety. Damn, back in the days, I would probably be kicked out on the streets for acting this way. I'm being such a spoiled little brat, and my mom takes so much of my shit. Since I read my own blog like.. everyday (I know I'm lame), I'm gonna promise it here. I promise to TRY, really try my HARDEST to be nice to my mother. Heard that? No crossing fingers, I swear on my heart.

edit__ HOLY SHIT. I can hear the people outside of my house arguing. Dang.. theyy're scary. I guess the people talking woke one woman up, so she's all, "You need to go home. I'm gonna call the police. You need to go home, you need to go home." Ohohoho, and she says that about 10 times o_o. And the people downstairs (kids) are like, "Oh hell no, stfu stupid old lady." And etc etc, I wonder if she's really gonna call the police... she's gonna wake up the whole damn neighborhood! Well, just thought I'd share that little tidbit of information with you guys. :) And now that I think about it.. I ate a shitload today. In the morning, I ate 곰국. Then like 4 hours later, I get hungry again so I ate bap with other shit. Then around.. 4:30ish, and by this time I'm out, I decide I want some 냉면 to battle the hot weather outside! THEN, as I'm walking on Western, I see McDonalds :o And I caved in and got the stupid 4pc Chicken Nuggets with BBQ Sauce.. so good... THEN I ate Berry Nutty, because we went in and Izzy found Baby Nutty, so we got a discount :p How can you pass up discounted frozen yogurt? Well anyways, now I'm home and I'm hungry again. Thank God for fast metabolisms. Aaaaaand, now all I hear are crickets chirping, yay! No police. :)

immature bitches

these days, I swear.

So this is gonna be a pure rant, boring as always. So today, we (Bresee) went to the beach with the middle school kids that we'd be mentoring. I got paired with this bitchass little girl that thought she was all that. She's only 13, going to 7th grade, cmon now. Have some respect. Anyways, so it was nothing at first. We just rode the bus quietly, played at the beach. Okay first of all, I honestly know and acknowledge that I can't sing, I do it for fun. So the song Bleeding Love came on my iPod, so I was singing it and she goes "Ew, I hate that song." Did I fucking ask for your little opinion? I don't think so. Then she fucken unplugs my iPod! WTF? So I told her wtf, don't touch what's not yours, it's fucken rude. And she just sits there, so I'm like wtf. And then we get to Bresee, and about 5 minutes after I got off the bus, I realize my phone's gone! So I checked the bus, asked all the teachers but none of em had it. Then I see her in the hallway so I asked her to her face, if she has my phone or not and she says no. So being the angel that I am (teehee), I didn't say anything else. But I was seriously suspicious that she took it, since she was the last one off the bus, and we had a little drama. Then I got a call from Norma, my fellow peer at Bresee, that she found my phone! So of course I ask her for details, and turns out bitchass little girl stole it, and when I temporarily disconnected it, she thought it was useless so she was caught tryna hide it between the seats of the bus, FUCKEN AYE STUPID MOTHERFUCKER. I swear she's like fucking looking down on me with her fucking fucked up ugly ass motherfucking FACE, oh my god. I'm looking forward to Bresee on Monday. FUCKING BITCH.

atleast to me,

boys are soo confusing.
I don't know if it's because I haven't had much experience with boys, but they lose me everytime. If something's going good, fear stops me. Or they do something horrible, and makes me lose interest. ANYWAYS, moving on. I'm going to get a debit card, wee~ Of course, it's going to be the Hello Kitty one! o_o Summer's going so great 8) Bresee :D



Hehe! I think it's really cute, and I'm so ready to start saving money and stop spending it! Well, until next time. :)

OH! For those of you that read my blog.. and those of you who are actually interested... nevermind that's no one. But just in case I have a weird stalker that enjoys reading my boring posts, I wanted to talk a little about my summer program :p Boy, I'm feeling talkative today! Anyways, it's called Goals for Life, and it's operated by Bresee Youth Center (the place where I did my community service.) Basically, what made me sign up was when I heard that we were getting paid $1100 for only 6 months! But as I read on and learned more about the program, I realized it was a great oppurtunity for me. First of all, the 5day Yosemite trip that I went on was $400-$500 per person, and there was about.. 20-23 people. And it was all FREE, awesome, right? And the scenery and experience was amazing, as I mentioned in my before post. Anyways, we also learn essential things for life such as managing our finances, historical leaders, computer (photoshopping), video recording, and etc. We also get to mentor 1 middle school student, and I think it's great that I get to actually teach someone! I hope I do well. And we also go on trips to places like the beach, the Getty Museum, the Museum of Tolerance, and etc. I've REALLY been waiting to go to the Museum of Tolerance! No one can tell how excited I am. But basically, although it is easy money, I'm also happy that I get a chance like this. (Which I'd like to thank Rene for, love you!) I've also met some GREAT people in the program. Yeap, summer's good. 8)

*Btw, I really hate attention whores.

BTW! Sorry, I really do feel talkative today though o_o. Anyways, I kinda miss him. But hey, it was my choice, and I'm ready to take full resposibility :) When I think about the pros and cons of this certain someone, cons > pros, by a lottt. Dang, I know that was some useless information, but I had to get that off my chest. Now that I wrote this, I don't miss him at all! LOL. I'll never stoop so low again, and I know there's someone better out there for me! :D Yay for positive thinking ^^ Well, I'm off to watch my 찬란한유산, I'm so behind! Gahh. Stupid Justin, lied to me about what happened in it XD I'd appreciate it if you commented, if you read this :]

finally back

There's really nothing better than home sweet home :) Well I've been gone July 2-4 for church retreat, but nothing in particular to talk about there. Then July 5-10 I went to Yosemite National Park for my Bresee Summer Program! OH MY GOD. It was SO amazing, seriously. At first, I was complaining because the bus ride was 9 hours long, and 3/4 of it was burning hot. Then I couldn't shower because so many girls were in line. Basically, the first day was baaad. I hated it and wanted to go home! And I believe the second day we went for a short hike, and wow. I seriously didn't know trees could be so.. huge o_o They were like, up there!! AWESOME. And then I got into my whiny mode again because I found out we were carrying 10 or 20 pound backpacks for 2.7 miles, then sleeping in the wilderness. Sucks for me, since I brought a super thin sleeping bag. The first night wasn't so good, threw up in the middle of the night. Froze my ass off, and I'm sure my toes were in ice paradise. But the second day was sooooooo cool! We climbed Mt. Hoffman, and it was so much easier because we were used to the thin air. We camped at 8,000ft, and climbed up to 10,850ish ft. It was so.. wow. Who's ever been to the top of a mountain? Wowwww, it's so... it makes you speeechless. The scenery is so magnificent, and it seriously made the hike worth it. When I got back to LA, it felt like there was too much oxygen in the air. Even now, I feel like I'm wasting time in front of the computer, when I should be doing something useful. But I want to thank my 2 leaders, Janaki and Andy for making it such an awesome experience. They were so patient, and they understood our pace and stuck with us. They pulled through our complaints and whining, but in the end, I think everyone knew how grateful we ought to be. I honestly honestly HONESTLY think if I had a chance to go again, I would DEFINITELY. And for people who have the time and money, I really recommend you go. It wakes you up, and let's you see everything from a whole new perspective. And I know all that just now sounded like major jiral, but it's true. I love Yosemite! GO! 8D